Happy Early Mother’s Day 
And Happy Early Halloween 
I am posting this 2017 podcast audio of me chatting with my mom over a variety of deep, human topics. She is a therapist, substance abuse counselor, and is highly credentialed. But besides that, she is a practicer of much Life, wisdom, love, and deeply challenging human experience.
Tag: humility
Just wanted to share, that it seems like I will be required to be mostly straightedge. Maybe a little portion of a hookah every once in a blue might be ok, but even that I dont know.
- I cannot smoke cigarettes because even one now will create in me a hacking coughing fit
- I cannot drink alcohol because even one sip may cause me to binge where I become a danger to the lives of myself and others
- I cannot smoke weed, because the last two times I broke my abstinence from marijuana I became extremely emotionally distraught, where I am at risk of wanting to leave this world.
Looks like this leaves me with tea and hot sauce 
The first guest ever on the Spark the Flame podcast, my mom! Zoraida Diaz, with over 20 years experience in professional counseling. Psychotherapist, LCSW (Licensed Clinical Social Worker), CASAC (Credentialed Alcohol + Substance Abuse Counselor). Absolute overall wonderful incredible person, full of grit for Life and the Spirit, and my personal hero.
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I saw the following quote in an article about how meaning, value, and fulfillment can be lived/derived/experienced from “normal” kinds of lives:
“Her full nature, like that river of which Cyrus broke the strength, spent itself in channels which had no great name on the earth. But the effect of her being on those around her was incalculably diffusive: for the growing good of the world is partly dependent on unhistoric acts; and that things are not so ill with you and me as they might have been is half owing to the number who lived faithfully a hidden life, and rest in unvisited tombs.”
–Middlemarch by George Eliot
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Drinking makes me belligerent. Its already challenging to steer my life positively as I try more, why would I increase the possible friction with other people? There are enough issues to work on besides adding uncontrollable unpredictable factors like drunkenness.
Im so grateful I am still scared to drink.
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Help me make the best contribution, the HAPPIEST contribution I can make
Give me the DESIRE to BE the best person I can be
Help me be grateful for so many blessings I Live every moment Every Day
Help me be as GRATEFUL as I can be
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Thank you for helping me stay sober from alcohol
It is Life and Death
Thank You
the false ego wants power
the natural being arrives at Grace naturally